The Weekend (Days 11 & 12)

E:
Old Things Healed, New Things Tried

On the hike, there is no hashing out
of how it used to be, there is just the river,
and the broken bridge rebuilt

downstream, only birds and the songs they make,
and the new green blades that push through
the detritus. Attention is the new ground

from which we will grow.  At home,
anything goes, the kids take risks
on blue cheese, banana pancakes, a new trick

on the trampoline.  We meet for virtual music
and linger, soft silences melodic, traded thoughts.
No point in filling the spaces with old stories,

time now to believe the black-capped
chickadee, the belt of Orion, to be a part
in a new kind of together.

M:
This weekend was the beginning day of spring break. I went on a lot of walks with my friends and my family. Before this virus, I didn’t walk this much, I mean I had my sports, but I didn’t take the time to be outside in the fresh air on my own. I didn’t know how much I liked walking. Usually when I hang out with people we go sit inside. I’ve gotten to walk all over town which feels so weird because there is no one in town. It feels like a ghost town. We drove by the school and usually when I take that drive I have this feeling of really not wanting to go, but now when I drive by all I want to do is go back. This is probably good because now I will really appreciate going to school. I want to be back in class talking to people and I want to be sitting at the lunch table with my friends. I heard about how the coronavirus numbers are going down in China and I know we can’t legally make everyone stay inside, but I wish we could follow their path a little and get rid of this virus. Our numbers are going up so much and I don’t understand why people aren’t staying inside because they feel like they don’t have to worry. People need to realize that just because they can’t get sick, their loved ones can. They need to be careful. It’s so hard to stay inside but we will have to much longer if people don’t start being aware. I want to enjoy my spring break and I am supposed to be with my friends but now I can’t. But, I have to remember to be grateful that I can still walk around with my friends because some people can’t even leave their houses. I am so lucky but I really miss my people. I know that this will end, but it’s hard for me to not know how long it will go. 

M:
THE WEEKEND
On Saturday we woke up and my mom taught a class. We had a skillet for breakfast and I played games with my friends. After that we went on a hike with my dad and  it was fun to see him. On the hike we played football. I also threw the ball for my dog and found a stick to throw for her in the river. After that I did some tricks on the trampoline and we watched a movie called 1917. We then went to bed because we were tired.
SUNDAY
Today we woke up and laid around the house in the morning. We didn’t do much today. after lunch we went on our daily hike and then came back. I played video games with my friends and went back out on the trampoline. I was sad because it was Sunday and on Monday we had to start doing our work from home again. Then I remembered it was spring break. My mom and I then watched a show and went to bed.

Day 9

E:
A Day of Sun

A day of sun,
there will be snow tomorrow,
just like a Colorado springtime.

We pick sage along the trail,
my son tells running stories
the entire time,

I have nothing to do
but listen with my whole body
as mountain bluebirds

sing the backdrop.
When I talk to my lover later,
there are sweet staring pauses,

I watch his face on a screen,
so close but not
for touching.

The children make dinner together
they are soft with one another.
I dream of listening to the guitar

of my dead music hero,
while my friend runs her fingers
through my hair in the grass.

M:
Day nine was very nice and relaxing. I watched American Horror Story for a lot of the day, then I cleaned out the baskets full of random stuff in my room. I hung out with E then at the end of the day, I cooked dinner with my mom and brother. It was a nice and calming day. I obviously miss my friends, but we have been going on walks every day and that really helps me stay connected to them. I know this virus isn’t going to go away soon so I know I need to stop hoping, but we can still be hopeful that everyone stays safe and we make it past this. I’m so excited for when this becomes a thing of the past and we’re all back to our normal lives. I know that a lot of people in the US are not taking this seriously and that’s why it’s spreading so fast. At first I was so mad that I had to stay away from my friends, but now I’m grateful that I’m in one of the families that made the right choice. I want everyone to stay inside and keep their distance from other people because if everyone in the world did that for around two weeks, we could get rid of the virus. On the bright side, I have had a lot of time to do art and to do things that I wouldn’t normally have time to do.

M:
Today we woke up and did our schoolwork after that we went on a hike. I also played with my friends on xbox. When we got back my sister and I made dinner. We had a beef rice and cucumber bowl. I then played more games and after that we went to bed

Day 7

E:
The refrigerator is looking a little bare.  Good thing we have our grocery pick-up scheduled for tomorrow.  City Market is offering free drive up service.  I ordered on Sunday, but Wednesday was the first day we could get in.   We are good on frozen things and pantry things, but we are hurting on fresh produce.  I’m excited about lettuce.

I taught a 30-minute live restorative yoga class today for Mom and her friends. It was so sweet to be with them in that way.  I love how we are finding ways to connect.

M and I hiked with friends through the snow up on the mesa – to a beautiful view of the mountains. The sky was bluebird and the sun was beaming, and it felt great to be high.  They brought their dog who loved catching snowballs in her mouth.  It was expansive.

M drove down from the hike.  He did a great job…curvy roads and all!

M went on her own walk with her friend, E.  They needed some alone time, and I’m so happy they had the opportunity.  We all have this 6-foot-distance thing down, and I trust them with it.

I’m hoping we can continue to connect with people outside in this distance-conscious way, though I’m not sure how it will all look going forward.

People close to us are starting to feel various ramifications from this.  A local employee who just quit working for a friend’s business due to C-19 totaled his car and barely survived.  This happened during the hours he would have been at work …guilt, sadness.

Last night the kids and I watched Train to Busan, a Korean zombie apocalypse film.  It was fantastic.  Also, a little edgy with the looming real-life virus.  There were words in the movie like “quarantine” and “infected.”  Surreal.

M:
Today was one of the best days yet. I got to have some alone time with E. We followed the six feet apart rule because it was easy when we weren’t being watched. We walked a couple circles around our neighborhood and gave other people distance when we walked by them. This was probably one of my favorite parts of the last week. After our walk, we sat down in the grass next to the tire swing. I can’t explain how much I enjoyed this alone time with E. These moments give me hope. They remind me of what we used to be able to, which helps me with the fact that we will be able to do those things again. We will be able to hug each other and be in each other’s houses. For the rest of the day I had a relaxing time in my room, then I watched a zombie apocalypse movie with my family. It was the perfect movie for this time because in some way it made us grateful that we weren’t being attacked by zombies. I have been on top of my homework and once you get into the rhythm of doing your work for a couple hours in the morning every day, It gets easier. All of my friends are having the same emotions that I am, and that makes me feel less alone.

M:
Today we went up county road 5 and did a hike. On the way back down I got to drive. When we got back I played games with my friends and we watched a zombie horror movie called Train to Busan.

Day 5, Family Coronavirus Journal

Day 5

E:
Sunday.  We made a short film today.  The story is a about a teenage girl (played by E), who is forced to go on a hike with her two parents.  Dad (played by the talented M) is worried because he has to lay people off.  Mom (featuring gifted newcomer M) is panicked about toilet paper.  Nonetheless, they know it’s a good idea to get their reluctant daughter out in nature (she just wants to be with her friend Sheila).

Oh, the antics.  Daughter wants to hike with her cell phone but is denied.  She mopes along the trails while Mom and Dad valiantly attempt to make her have a good time. Things change when she throws her first rock into the river…maybe this is fun!

After that, she starts to get the hang of it.  Dad is exhausted trying to keep up with her, while Mom finally gets some peace and quiet.

A cheeky cast makes this nail biter a not-to-be-missed film of the season, complete with a harrowing car scene, never-before-seen stunts done by the actors themselves and a family who keeps learning (even as we speak) about what nature can do for a family.

Rated PG for some thematic elements.  Running Time 5 min.

M:
Day five was more fun than all the other days. We went on the same hike that we go on a lot, but we made a short movie while on the hike. After the hike, I spent a while editing the movie. This was fun because we decided to make it not relate too much to coronavirus so we had time to think about other things. I’ve decided the worst part of his virus is that we have to think about it all the time. It’s this constant thing in our brains and everything we do reminds us of it. I think my friends are also starting to get more relaxed with the thought that we are going to be inside for a long time. At first everyone was freaking out and we all didn’t know what we were going to do with ourselves. Now we’re finding a lot of people to facetime and we are making it through the hard times. I’m fine staying inside but I wish I was staying inside with my friends. I wish that we could be going through this together. I would be fine doing self isolation for months if I had at least one friend. We are now in our second week and After this we will have a spring break. I can tell is week will be easier and it will keep getting easier from here. 

M:
Today we woke up and ate breakfast. We then decided to make a short film on our hike. It ended up being pretty good and after that we got back home and I was kinda tired. When we were filming my sister was driving the car and it took us 6 attempts to shoot the film because the phone kept falling over. When we got back I played Xbox with my friends.

Finally, Haiku

Fresh snow, overdue
invitation to climb up
into the forest.

Post-holing, we have
the wrong shoes.  We don’t mind.  Sun
between the branches.

Different stages
of freeze and thaw ~ waterfall,
raging stream, our feet.

Ice trail leads into
the belly of a mountain ~
if this cave could talk.

Pre-adolescents
notice the sacred, feel how
large the story is.

By the river that
could carry us away, our
hands in our pockets.

December Ramble

We tumble
down the white path
barely there,
past naked aspen
and the tips of sticks
whose buds have yet
to bulge.  Blue river
chimes beneath
the frozen snow,
our shoes not right
for post-holing,
but our stories
enough to ward off darkness
until the parked car appears,
and the sun sinks down
through a starry hole
in the Colorado sky.