Days 15-20

E…Snippets, Haikus:

Quarantined lovers
stand six feet apart, windy
Delta parking lot.

Between us, the two
clipped daffodils you brought, one
is me, one is you.

Two hours to the red
rocks, desert flowers bloom white,
plum, yellow, crimson.

A Mars planet, no
one on the roads, our spirits
lift by the river.

Support comes from the
most unexpected places,
these little graces.

A couple degrees
of separation – in all
directions, closer.

How vulnerable
we all are now, and not just
in our bodies.

Sunday morning, the
first day I practiced yoga
with a woodpecker.

Healing comes in the
form of two dimensional
faces on a screen.

Armageddon.  What
is that, music? An ice cream
truck, an empty street.

M:

Spring break – Six days 

Spring break was perfect timing for a relaxing break away from online school. I partly wish that they skipped spring break and just ended school early because that’s what Telluride did, but I know that this break was good for me. I don’t know if I’m ready to start school again but I feel like during this break I’ve gotten very organized. I now make my bed every day and I keep my room super clean. I think that I can dive back into school and really stay on top of it. I still really miss my friends. Like more than I ever thought I could. I really need that connection, but in some way I think we’ve made an even greater connection. We talk all the time and we have personal conversations that we don’t normally have. Anna was allowed to spend a couple nights at my house because she’s been in complete quarantine. That was really good for her and I know she needed it a lot and it felt good to be there for her and be able to physically hug her. My friends and I watch movies together and we facetime so I feel like our connection has gotten so strong. School has been easier and harder than I thought at the same time. Our assignments are easy, but it’s really hard to find the motivation to do them. I now realize that when my room is clean and my life is in order, I focus much better and my schoolwork becomes easier. We are going to start writing again every day and get back on our regular schedule. I’m very excited for school to end, but I know i’ll make it through happily and I’ll work very hard to keep my life in order. 

M:
The weekend review-
Over the weekend we did many things like going on a hike in the desert. We also got to see my dad on Sunday.  He came down to Ridgway and we played football. We also got groceries from the market. This time we got most of the stuff that we ordered. Rob was going to come but he couldn’t and we were sad that he wasn’t able to make it. We start doing school from home again on Tuesday and I really don’t want to. It is interesting how doing everything from home kinda feels normal now.

Day 8

E:
After school/work this morning, M went on a walk with her friend A and they were together (6 feet apart) for 5 hours.  So great.  M said they walked on opposite sides of the street for much of it. Her heart feels happy from time with her friends and it makes her all glowy.  It’s wonderful.

M and I took a bike ride.  It was the first time I’ve ridden a bike since recovering from two surgeries on my R. knee over the past year and a broken wrist from a mountain biking accident.  What a year…who knew this one would top it?  I’m just grateful to have my physical body back and working right now to take care of these kids and myself.  I know that there are many out there who are compromised to begin with, and my heart goes to them.

Anyway, riding bikes up the county road was so much fun.  Liberating.  We went for about an hour.  There was bit of a chill in the air.  We passed the cows and moo’ed at them loudly.  We had a contest to count bird nests.

Then I did the dreaded shopping trip.  I left the kids and drove to town.  Since we had pre-ordered, the car was loaded up by market staff – he looked exhausted.  And he wasn’t allowed to accept tips. He told me that today the max amount of pick-ups allowed was 60 (between 8am and 8pm), and tomorrow they are doubling that to 120.

Early evening, M set up “spa day.”  She painted my nails…black with green sparkles.  We steamed our faces with green tea and bath salts, then did masks. So sweet.  And so fun…and it was awesome.  This was followed by a whole regimen of products.  And truly it felt fantastic.  Especially after the grocery run…the best.

Then M helped me make pizzas. He rolled the dough and threw it up into the air.  Covered in olive oil and sea salt, homemade sauce, feta, mozzarella, peperoni and black olives.  He did a great job.  So fun to cook with him.  And we had salad…hooray.

I can honestly say that the quality time I am spending with the kids has dramatically increased in the past week since we are all out of our old routines.  I am so grateful for that.  I know that there are a lot of people suffering right now.  I feel the weight of that, too.  I worry for my brother struggling on the farm, for my mom who is home alone…and also, I very much trust the lights in them. They are both so bright.

M:
Day eight was a pretty good day. I got to see Anna and we hung out and walked around. We barely talked about the virus which made it a lot better. It felt like we were just hanging out like we used to. It felt good to be there for her. I miss all my friends and I wish I could be with them, but in some way it feels like we are closer than ever. There’s no drama or fighting, it’s just positivity. We are all going through this together and we all support each other. Every day I hear something new about how much longer the virus is going to go or how we might be stuck like this for months. These things are all very hard to hear because I want to be with my people again. I hope that after this ends, We will all be closer and we won’t take advantage of being around each other. I wish that we all already had corona because then we would be immune and we could hang out. There’s so many things that I wish were different but I have no power over them which makes me feel helpless. My friends and I text all the time and that makes me feel hopeful. I couldn’t imagine going through this alone. Everyday I think about how excited I am for the future and how grateful I will be when it gets here.

M:
Today we woke up and did our school work from 9-12, after that we went on an hour long bike ride. When we got back I played games with my friends for a while. My mom then went to the grocery store to pick up food we had ordered on Sunday. When my mom got back we ate food and I helped make pizza. After that my mom and I watched a show then went to sleep.

Day 7

E:
The refrigerator is looking a little bare.  Good thing we have our grocery pick-up scheduled for tomorrow.  City Market is offering free drive up service.  I ordered on Sunday, but Wednesday was the first day we could get in.   We are good on frozen things and pantry things, but we are hurting on fresh produce.  I’m excited about lettuce.

I taught a 30-minute live restorative yoga class today for Mom and her friends. It was so sweet to be with them in that way.  I love how we are finding ways to connect.

M and I hiked with friends through the snow up on the mesa – to a beautiful view of the mountains. The sky was bluebird and the sun was beaming, and it felt great to be high.  They brought their dog who loved catching snowballs in her mouth.  It was expansive.

M drove down from the hike.  He did a great job…curvy roads and all!

M went on her own walk with her friend, E.  They needed some alone time, and I’m so happy they had the opportunity.  We all have this 6-foot-distance thing down, and I trust them with it.

I’m hoping we can continue to connect with people outside in this distance-conscious way, though I’m not sure how it will all look going forward.

People close to us are starting to feel various ramifications from this.  A local employee who just quit working for a friend’s business due to C-19 totaled his car and barely survived.  This happened during the hours he would have been at work …guilt, sadness.

Last night the kids and I watched Train to Busan, a Korean zombie apocalypse film.  It was fantastic.  Also, a little edgy with the looming real-life virus.  There were words in the movie like “quarantine” and “infected.”  Surreal.

M:
Today was one of the best days yet. I got to have some alone time with E. We followed the six feet apart rule because it was easy when we weren’t being watched. We walked a couple circles around our neighborhood and gave other people distance when we walked by them. This was probably one of my favorite parts of the last week. After our walk, we sat down in the grass next to the tire swing. I can’t explain how much I enjoyed this alone time with E. These moments give me hope. They remind me of what we used to be able to, which helps me with the fact that we will be able to do those things again. We will be able to hug each other and be in each other’s houses. For the rest of the day I had a relaxing time in my room, then I watched a zombie apocalypse movie with my family. It was the perfect movie for this time because in some way it made us grateful that we weren’t being attacked by zombies. I have been on top of my homework and once you get into the rhythm of doing your work for a couple hours in the morning every day, It gets easier. All of my friends are having the same emotions that I am, and that makes me feel less alone.

M:
Today we went up county road 5 and did a hike. On the way back down I got to drive. When we got back I played games with my friends and we watched a zombie horror movie called Train to Busan.